I’ve been looking very energetically on OKCupid and I’ve found some really cool women on that site. Lots of super nice and intelligent people on there. All ages. It’s cool.
However, the problem I’m running into is that I have a very dark sense of humor and most people can’t relate to that. I can get along with just about anyone, but I have a hard time relaxing and being myself around regular normal people. I feel like I always sort of have to watch myself. If I loosen up too much I’m going to alienate people.
I’m not trying to cop an attitude like I’m superior. That’s the last thing I’d want to do. It’s just that growing up all through my impressionable formative years I subsisted on a steady diet of Joy Division, Siouxsie, Sisters of Mercy, Bauhaus, The Cure, early Metallica, Black Flag, Sabbath, Meat Puppets, Nirvana. Then I got into Covenant, Switchblade Symphony, KMFDM and all that stuff.
Or maybe it has nothing to do with the music I listen to or the books I read and it’s just me. But when I see a nice blonde girl android hookup apps who says she’s “easy going,” “laid back,” and “go with the flow,” and into sports, I think, “I could never make her happy.” I don’t want to bring my misery and darkness into anyone’s life. I need to find a girl who’s already like that. (See what I mean? Hilarious, right?)
I tried to put jokes into my profile that I thought were a scream and you should have heard those crickets chirping. I’m still cleaning out the tumbleweeds. So then with the help of a kind friend I niced it up and started getting way more visits, but as I said I want someone I can really connect with. Lees verder